1 THE LIGHT
“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was formless and void, and darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was moving over the surface of the waters. Then God said, ‘Let there be light’ and there was light.”
I vividly remember the first time I opened the Bible. It was a thick book and the pages were so thin. I did not know where to start reading. So, I started at the beginning; Genesis 1:1, “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.” And the second verse read, “The earth was formless and void, empty, and darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was moving over the surface of the waters.”
The words, formless, empty, and dark sounded sad to me. With no light and no life, it sounded like the earth was helpless and hopeless. So I read the next verse: “Then God said, ‘Let there be light’; and there was light.” It wasn’t until verse 3 that God gave light to the earth. I wondered, “Why didn’t God make the light first and then the earth? Why did the earth spend time without the light -- formless, empty, and dark?”
After several weeks had passed since I began to go to church, God showed me a vision. I saw a very dark creature sitting curled up in a corner of a dark street. The creature had no eyes, mouth, or nose– nothing. It was neither an animal nor a person. It was just something. The creature seemed to have deep sorrow and emptiness. It wanted to cry out, but could make no sound for it had no mouth. But then, I saw a figure of light coming toward the creature.
In the vision, the figure had the shape of Jesus–full of light – and a brilliant light was shining all about him. The figure of light came to the creature, hugged it and said “Yeonjai, Yeonjai, cry as much as you want” and then suddenly the creature burst out crying. The creature cried until it had poured out all the tears in its heart. As the creature cried, I knew it was my soul crying. I felt ultimate peace, a greater peace than I felt at my mother's bosom. And the creature thought, “I am filthy, literally, full of dirt and Jesus is so clean and white, so full of light.”
Whenever I read Genesis 1:1-3, I remember the vision God showed me, almost twenty years ago. God allowed me to spend some of my life without the Light so that I would realize how hopeless and helpless I was without Jesus. That day God said to me “let there be light.” Since then Jesus has been my Light.